Dear World,
I have a friend. Who is the most beautiful one I’ve ever had. I wanted to be her since the day I met her.
Right now, she’s destroying herself. Her mind is so focused on being thin, on being what she thinks is right for her, and that her being that way will make her happy. She’s killing herself. Her body is very slowly deteriorating by the day because of what she’s doing to herself.
I don’t want her to be that skinny. DJ doesn’t want her to be that skinny. No one wants her to be that skinny. It isn’t right. Physically, mentally, any way one could ever look at it. It isn’t right.
I wish I was the one with the eating disorder. It isn’t right for people with problems like that to just talk about it to each other, like it’s normal. It’s not normal to compare the calories, the lost weight, anything. They need to care about each other and get help.
Especially her…she’s so talented and gorgeous. Next to being her for just a day, one thing I’ve always wanted to do was kiss her. Maybe even date her. I’m scared to go back to school and watch what happens to her day to day. I don’t want her to die. I don’t want another friend to die. DJ gave me everything I could ever need to help mend the gaping hole in my heart from the death of the bestest friend I ever had. I can’t lose another. It’ll be far too much.
I hope that wherever she is…one day she’ll realize that she’s so talented and pretty. And she’ll have the willpower to end this.
If you’re reading this, you know who you are. I love you to death. Don’t leave me, and I hope one day you’ll realize who you really are.
You are the most lovely person ever. Thank you so much for this. You really didn’t have to, but I know it came from your heart.
I’m going into the hospital next week. I would sooner, but they have to do tests (blood levels and things to make sure I’m healthy enough to be there). Hopefully this will make things better, even marginally.
Thank you for everything, and for being my friend, and for saying all the things that you do.
I love you infinitely.
<3
